Tuesday, April 21, 2015

A Bad Place

Sorry folks. No humor here. No witty remarks or snickers. Honestly--I'm in a pretty bad place right now. I reported for surgery this morning and was told I was once again diabetic, so they couldn't do it. I've been on Atkins for six weeks, eating low carb and very healthy. I don't have a single sign of diabetes. I see my doctor tomorrow morning and am hopefully rescheduled for Friday for surgery. It will probably all work out, but honestly, right now I'm exhausted and defeated and sad and angry. I am not seeing the silver lining. I am not looking on the bright side. I am not ready to "buck up". Right now I am miserable and so damn tired. This battle has about done me in, and I'm tired of fighting. I wanna just put down my weapons and find the nearest blanket fort to hide in. Stay tuned. I promise the amusing me will be back.


jade said...

I am sending you all the courage I can find and very good and happy thoughts and everything that might just give you a sliver of extra strength. You've made it so far, I'm wishing you to hold on a little longer. And that the pain may just go away. Gentle hug from far far away Belgium

Tracy said...

I am so sorry to hear that you cannot get rid of your pain. The toll it is taking on you is terrible. Consider this a big, big hug!!

Sheila in Ohio said...

This is SO not the news that I was hoping to hear -- I wanted to hear that your surgery is a done deal and that you are starting to feel better.

Sending good vibes your way!

WritingGoddess said...

Update my friends--I had the surgery on April 22 and I am in recovery mode now.